3.29.2007
10 things
10 things i think they should have taught us when we were in school...- how to make my own furniture.
- how to live like a cave man, ie, survive out in the wild.
- how to choose and find a job.
- how to choose and find an appropriate partner.
- how to make all relationships more enduring and meaningful.
- how to think and make good decisions.
- how to be more appreciative.
- how to be a responsible person.
- how to grow up.
- how NOT to be a total arse.
i think life would be so much better knowing all these, don't u think?
suddenly i feel like i spent about 17 years in the education system
only to learn what will not help me survive at all; what a complete waste.
they should start teaching kids more meaningful stuffs in school,
so they won't grow up all to become robotic pricks.
education nowadays, i think, stifles the potential of being human...
or should it be, godly...?
oh well~ never too late to start though...
Posted by jing at 3/29/2007 05:11:00 PM
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3.26.2007
so hard
it's so hard to explain why sometimes...it's just very personal...
something i felt i needed to do...
something only i will understand...
or perhaps sometimes even i dun really understand...
but i have to explain the whys...
make them all seem justifiable...
it's so sick...
i doubt people will ever understand the whys...
but they still ask anyway...
of course at times i wished i had done things differently...
but then again...
retrospective thinking almost never aids anything...
it just hinders you more in moving forward...
i want to move forward...
work hard, live right, be good, smile and be merry...
so hard...
why is it so hard...?
Posted by jing at 3/26/2007 04:41:00 PM
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3.19.2007
just hanging out...
Forty years ago, the Beatles asked the world a simple question:they wanted to know where all the lonely people came from.
My latest theory is that a great many of the
lonely people come from hospitals.
More precisely, the surgical wing of hospitals.
As surgeons, we ignore our own needs
so we can meet our patients' needs.
We ignore our friends and families
so we can save other people's friends and families.
Which means that, at the end of the day,
all we really have is ourselves.
And nothing in this world can make you feel more alone than that.
_*_*_*_
Four hundred years ago,
another well-known English guy had an opinion on being alone.
John Donne. He thought we were never alone.
Of course it was fancier when he said it.
No man is an island entire unto himself.
Boil down that island talk and he just meant that
all anyone needs is someone to step in and let us know we're not alone.
And who's to say that someone can't have four legs.
Someone to play with, or run around with, or just hang out.
[grey's anatomy s2ep11]
_*_*_*_
Posted by jing at 3/19/2007 12:12:00 AM
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3.17.2007
music and lyrics
.: don't write me off :.
hugh grant
It's never been easy for me
to find words to go along with a melody
but this time there's actually something on my mind
so please forgive these few brief awkward lines
since i met you my whole life has changed
it's not just my furniture you've re-arranged
i was living in the past
but somehow you've brought me back
and i haven't felt like this since before Frankie said relax
and now i know based on my track record
i might not seem like the safest bet
all i'm asking you is
don't write me off just yet
for years i've been telling myself the same old story
that i'm happy to live off my so called former glories
but you've given me a reason
to take another chance
now i need you despite the fact
that you've killed all my plants
and now i know
i've already blown more chances
than anyone should ever get
all i'm asking you is
don't write me off just yet
don't write me off just yet
_*_*_*_
simply so sweeeeet...
ain't hugh one of the cutest?
*smitten*
_*_*_*_
can't help but think...
close my eyes and reminisce...
the melodies...the lyrics...
*blissful*
...
...
...
i open my eyes...
nothing but the whirring sound from the fan...
...
...
...
Posted by jing at 3/17/2007 01:28:00 AM
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3.15.2007
d.r.e.a.m.s
dream dream dream...la la la la...
ed drew this quite some time ago...took it from his web.
(ed: hope u dun mind...hee.)
i like it... more and more with each time i look at it.
dream dream dream...la la la la...
here are my iWants for now...
- iPhone
- iTravel
- iMacBook
- iCondo
- iDog
- iPooltable
- iTub
- iBed
- iSheridan
- iCar
dream dream dream... la la la la...
Posted by jing at 3/15/2007 05:51:00 PM
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3.08.2007
Begin the Begin
Fresh starts.thanks to the calendar they happen every year -
just set your watch to January.
our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year.
Bringing on the great tradition of new years resolutions,
put your past behind you and start over.
It’s hard to resist the chance of a new beginning,
a chance to put the problems of last year to bed.
-*-*-*-
Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins?
It’s not a day on the calendar, not a birthday, not a new year,
it’s an event - big or small, something that changes us,
ideally, it gives us hope,
a new way of living and looking at the world,
letting go of old habits, old memories.
What's important is that we never stop
believing we can have a new beginning,
but it's also important to remember that amid all the crap
are a few things really worth holding on to.
[grey's anatomy s2ep13]
-*-*-*-
i need an event to happen;
something to change me and give me hope.
so i can have a new way of living
and looking at the world.
more importantly,
so i can let go of the crappy past
and continue believing...
that there are really things worth holding on to.
i need an event to happen.
Posted by jing at 3/08/2007 03:40:00 PM
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3.07.2007
remind me again...
i saw a tee that day with this printed on it:remind me again, why do i need a boyfriend?
it caught my attention instantly and i quickly pointed it out to est.
i kindda liked it i think,
i remember turning around to take a second look
even after we've walked on.
ha! i think i'm still bitter...obviously!
anyway, that's not really the point. lately, my question is...
remind me again, why do i need Him?
something that i grew up with, grew up hearing,
and eventually even preached about it myself,
yet now it all seems so unfamiliar and foreign...
kindda makes my past erm...maybe 14 years, a lie?
or maybe not. i dunno.
maybe i do know the answer,
afterall, i've been hearing & perhaps
possibly attempting to practise it more than half my life.
but somehow, it's just different already.
it's kindda queer when i think about it...
honestly, i've never felt more sinful in
my past 14 years than the past 6 months or so.
yet at the same time,
i've never felt this little about needing Him in my life.
maybe it's like what my "darling" says, that i lack the awareness.
hmmm...still trying to fathom what that entails actually.
i've also never felt so hope-less (pun intended...ha!) in the past.
this is not a spiritual low either; more like a spiritual no.
do others feel the same way? or am i one of the measly few?
maybe they are the ones who lack the awareness?
(at least i'm aware i lack the awareness.)
maybe they just go on with life making their faces vizards to their hearts?
(at least i'm bold enough to admit my weaknesses.)
maybe i was one of them?
(at least now i'm not.)
i randomly commented a few times, throughout the day,
to a fren that day, "hey, spread the gospel to me leh..."
she thought i was teasing her all the while
so she just ignored my question and
told me to stop it as if i was irritating her.
my fault actually, i think it was the way i asked...
i would have thought i was teasing me too.
[ps: i'm not mad or anything btw...u've been a good fren thus far :)]
perhaps it was just my way of making the situation seem less awkward,
cause i think i wouldn't know how to react either if
some 'old' church fren were to tell me the same thing,
whether to treat it as a joke or as something somber.
but i wasn't. like i said,
remind me again, why do i need Him?
feel free to share if u know more than textbook answers.
feel free to share if u know more than cliches.
feel free to share if u think u can enlighten me.
feel free to share if u think u care enough about eternity & me.
above all,
feel free to share if u can answer the above question blatantly urself.
Posted by jing at 3/07/2007 10:29:00 PM
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3.06.2007
天使
我的天使，你在哪里？Posted by jing at 3/06/2007 12:21:00 AM
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3.01.2007
ignorance
ignorance.ignorance is bliss.
or is it not?
knowledge hurts.
it hurts more than ignorance.
sometimes i think i'm just begging for trouble,
poking my nose around when i'm probably better off not knowing.
yes, knowledge has its price;
it stabs right in heart.
yet, ignorance has its own price too.
coz imagination exists.
ignorance with imagination is like
a million needles striking the heart at the same time, repeatedly.
now, ignorance without imagination...perhaps that's bliss.
knowing that,
i still chose ignorance over knowledge most of the time.
i try to avoid, yet it seems unavoidable.
i want to know, yet i'm so freakin afraid of what might be the truth.
they say "the truth hurts",
and oh yes, it does.
there's no way to be ignorant forever,
and when knowledge finally creeps its way up,
and catches you off guard,
it hurts a zillion times more than you can imagine;
perhaps like tens of katana (sword) stabbed all over your body,
you feel weak instantly and wish you'd die a quick death,
but you just bleed out instead, slowly and painfully.
so maybe, maybe i would be better off
kaypo-ing my way around and knowing it all;
rather than feigning ignorance, trying to avoid
and still get hurt when knowledge hits unexpectedly.
but the truth is,
ignorance allows room for hope to exist.
and as humans, we feed on hope day in day out.
life without hope is, well, empty.
but...
knowledge allows closure.
and as humans, we need closure to move on.
life without closure is, well, vile.
so, which is it? which would you choose?
to know or not to know?
i think i'm very confused.
i do not know what i need.
i do not know what would be best for me.
i do not know what i hope for.
i just know i'm still hurting and will continue to.
is this due to ignorance or knowledge?