1.29.2007

天灰

.: 天灰 - S.H.E :.
词:施人诚　曲:冯士哲

如果你不再出现
我的世界还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间
让我们试验什么叫永远
想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现
我会不会觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁
想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

Posted by jing at 1/29/2007 02:51:00 AM

1.25.2007

storms & wounds

Birds sing after a storm; why shouldn't people feel as free to delight in whatever sunlight remains to them?
-Rose Kennedy

It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.
-Rose Kennedy

Rose Fitzgerald Kennedy (July 22, 1890 – January 22, 1995) married into the Kennedy family and became its matriarch in the 20th century, when its members helped shape American politics.

[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rose_Fitzgerald_Kennedy]

Posted by jing at 1/25/2007 03:12:00 PM

1.24.2007

thank you

to you my SisTaaa & bRudDerrr...
thank you for being my friend.
probably ain't easy eh?
but, thanks.
from the bottom of my heart,
thank you SisTa.
thank you for choosing to walk with me.
and everything else too.
it really means alot to me.
*bow* (-.-,)
dun give up on me k?

Posted by jing at 1/24/2007 04:01:00 AM

1.22.2007

the throne & i

i'm sitting on the throne.
it feels good being here.
no rules.
no chains.
i feel free being here.

i'm sitting on the throne.
i've been here for a long while.
i'm getting used to it.
it doesn't feel that good anymore.
i'm still here anyway.

i'm sitting on the throne.
probably not where i should be.
don't exactly enjoy being here.
i know i shouldn't be here.
yet i'm refusing to step down anyway.

i'm sitting on the throne.
who am i?
what have i done?
what am i doing here?
do i belong here?

i'm sitting on the throne.
it's a mess around me.
it's a mess inside of me.
i should probably step down.
i think i'm chained to my throne.

i'm sitting on the throne.
don't look at me.
don't come any closer.
my face is a vizard.
evil lurks within me.

i'm sitting on the throne.
i'm worthless.
i'm perpetuating my hurt.
i'm self-destructing.
will you come set me free?

Posted by jing at 1/22/2007 12:13:00 AM

1.19.2007

every l.i.t.t.l.e thing

every little thing still hurts.
every little curiosity still crushes.
every little thought still burns.
every little memory still fresh.
every little detail still haunts.
every little tear still warm.
every little piece of me...

...still broken.

Posted by jing at 1/19/2007 12:14:00 AM

1.18.2007

...day out with my fav ladies...

all @ vivo...

we fell for the same checkered jacket @ nafnaf (^_^)v

i received 2 of the coolest gifts today (2007.01.17)!!!
top^^ when the little wooden ball twirls round and round, the chickens would peck on the board repeatedly. it's really cool!

left<< when you place it on a table and wind it continuously, it plays a crisp and beautiful tune of "over the rainbow". way cool!

for more pics, click on the link [jing SNAPs] on the right ------->

Posted by jing at 1/18/2007 03:24:00 AM

1.17.2007

『poison』

i like this song...

歌　：反町隆史 sorimachi takashi
作詞：反町隆史 sorimachi takashi
作曲：井上慎二郎 inoue shinjirou
編曲：吉田建 yoshida ken

いつまでも信じていたい itsu made mo shinjiteitai
最後まで思い続けたい saigo made omoi tsuzuketai
自分は生きる意味があるはずと jibun wa ikiru imi ga aru hazu to
冷めた目で笑いかけてる sameta me de waraikaketeru
魂を侵された奴 tamashii wo okasareta yatsu
涙を流す痛みはあるのかい？ namida wo nagasu itami wa aru no kai?

☆言いたいことも言えないこんな世の中じゃ
iitai koto mo ienai konna yo no naka ja
　POISON
　俺は俺をだますことなく生きてゆく
ore wa ore wo damasu koto naku ikite-yuku
　OH OH
　まっすぐ向き合う現実(いま)に massugu mukiau ima ni
　誇りを持つために hokori wo motsu tame ni
　戦う事も必要なのさ tatakau koto mo hitsuyou na no sa

階段にすわりこんで kaidan ni suwarikonde
終わらない夢の話を owaranai yume no hanashi wo
夜が明けるまで語り続けてた yo ga akeru made katari tsuzuketa
さりげなく季節は変わり sarigenaku kisetsu wa kawari
無意識に視線を落とし muishiki ni shisen wo otoshi
流される事に慣れてゆくのか nagasareru koto ni nareteyuku no ka

小さな夢も見れないこんな世の中じゃ
chiisa na yume mo mirenai konna yo no naka ja
POISON
自分らしさずっといつでも好きでいたい
jibun rashisa zutto itsudemo suki de itai
OH OH
自由に生きてく日々を jiyuu ni ikiteku hibi wo
大切にしたいから taisetsu ni shitai kara
行きたい道を今歩きだす ikitai michi wo ima arukidasu

汚い嘘や言葉で操られたくない
kitanai uso ya kotoba de ayatsuraretakunai
POISON
素直な気持ちから目をそらしたくない
sunao na kimochi kara me wo sorashitakunai

☆ REPEAT

Always, I want to keep believing...
Until the very end, I want to keep thinking...
that there has to be some meaning to my life.
Smiling with a cold glare
Do guys who have had their very soul violated
really feel the pain of shedding tears?

*In this kind of world where you can't say what you want,
Poison
I'll go on with my life, still being true to myself.
Oh Oh
In this moment we face it head-on,
we have to fight in order to keep our pride.

Sitting on the stairs,
we went on talking of unending dreams
until the break of dawn.
The seasons change casually
I unconsciously drop my eyes
Am I really getting used to being swept along?

In this kind of world where you can't have even small dreams,
Poison
I want to always, always be able to like being who I am.
Oh Oh
I want to cherish each day I can live freely,
so I'll walk whatever path I want.

I don't want to be manipulated by filthy lies and words.
Poison
I don't want to turn away from my true feelings.

Repeat *

Posted by jing at 1/17/2007 12:18:00 AM

1.16.2007

forgiveness

forgiveness.
the rational speaking.

forgiveness.
to the ones who expects something,
nothing will be enough to grant it.
to the ones who expect nothing,
nothing will be enough to grant it;
forgiveness grants itself.

forgiveness.
only changes the forgivee,
when he realizes he needs it.
won't change the forgiver,
if he demands it.

forgiveness.
doesn't change the forgivee,
if he desires it not.
only changes the forgiver,
if he grants it anyhow.

forgiveness.
the emotional roars and weeps.

:: for you, my fren. and for me too. ::

Posted by jing at 1/16/2007 02:03:00 AM

1.11.2007

t.r.u.t.h

to my friends who care...

on my not so fantastic days,
sometimes i wish i could get so drunk,
so i could tell you everything
and not hesitate,
and not have to consider if you can handle the truth,
and not remember how embarrassing it was
spilling the truth.

so then maybe you could understand,
understand all my emotions and actions.
maybe then you would see things differently.
you may judge,
but i'd be so drunk i wouldn't care.
but of course, like anyone else,
i would wish that you would simply stand by me,
and just be my friend.

sometimes,
on my not so fantastic days,
i secretly wish for that.
so i don't have to pretend no more.

Posted by jing at 1/11/2007 09:41:00 PM

1.10.2007

t.i.m.e

.: time :.

time flies.
time waits for no man.
time heals all wounds.
all any of us wants...
is more time.
time to stand up.
time to grow up.
time to let go.
time.

grey's anatomy s3ep1

[oh yes it does!]
[it just ticks away regardless...]
[maybe. but how much time?]
[all some of us want...]
[is turn back time.]
[pick me up?]
[what would change?]
[teach me how.]
[time.]

[jing's anatomy sXepX]

Posted by jing at 1/10/2007 09:45:00 PM

1.09.2007

.y.l.i.m.a.f.

i remember i used to envy mel's family.
i really like his family.
it always felt nice to hear about them.
they all seemed really nice and close.
i still envy mel's family.
big & well-off family (aunties, uncles, cousins and all)
but cohesive and loving.
even when some things changed,
they seemed to remain the same.
i really like mel's family.
i think i used to secretly wish (i still do...)
that mel's parents could adopt me or something.
then i can be part of the happy family.
i would really like that.

but what i really really really want right now is...
*the big reveal*
*drum roll*

...to just disappear.

not possible though; it's molecularly impossible.

therefore...what i really really really want right now is...
*the big reveal*
*drum roll*

...to maybe go overseas and work and earn loads of money.
so i can try to make every other thing i need and want possible.

sounds materialistic? not if u know me i think.

everything's just so wrong right now,
nothing seems right.
well, we live in a fallen world,
that's why there's hurt.
coz humans hurt one another.

as my fav jap phrase puts it...
仕方がありません (there's no other choice/it can't be helped).

everything's like a big conspiracy man. trust no one.
$ struggle. $ this. $ that.
i hope it ends with our generation.
it's too hurting.

be responsible. be good. be loving. be reliable.
be rich. be smart. be happy. be fun. be filial.
be different. be respected. be natural. be someone else.

all in all...
growing up sucks.
ignorance is bliss.
sometimes just simply "仕方がありません".

Posted by jing at 1/09/2007 12:44:00 AM

1.08.2007

food・glorious food

07.01.07

i haven't had so much food in the east in such a long time...

@ east coast:
gonggong, lala, chilli crab, stingray, fried man tou,
coconut, sugar cane drink

@ upp east coast:
mango pudding, durian pudding, drinks, po luo pao

i miss the east...i really do.

Posted by jing at 1/08/2007 03:22:00 AM

1.07.2007

d.i.m.p.l.e.d (.^_^.)

our day 05.01.07

bleu liquid @ central mall.
20, havelock road.

(.^_^.)

lalelalelelelele...

チーズ :: cheeze

ah!?!?!!!

hoi!

big appetite ................................. Lを模倣すること

Posted by jing at 1/07/2007 12:04:00 AM

1.06.2007

w a r p ( e d )

sometimes life can be...

warp (wôrp)
v. warped, warp·ing, warps

・to make or become twisted out of shape: warp ; 使翘曲起 ; ひずませる
・to cause to think or act in an abnormal way: warp ; 使不正常 ; ゆがめる
・the shape into which something is twisted by warping: warp ; 变形 ; ゆがみ
・the set of threads lying lengthwise in a loom during weaving: warp ; 经 ; 縦糸

–verb (used with object)
1. to bend or twist out of shape, esp. from a straight or flat form, as timbers or flooring.
2. to bend or turn from the natural or true direction or course.
3. to distort or cause to distort from the truth, fact, true meaning, etc.; bias; falsify: Prejudice warps the mind.

-verb (used without object)
7. to become bent or twisted out of shape, esp. out of a straight or flat form: The wood has warped in drying.
8. to be or become biased; hold or change an opinion due to prejudice, external influence, or the like.

–noun
11. a bend, twist, or variation from a straight or flat form in something, as in wood that has dried unevenly.
12. a mental twist, bias, or quirk, or a biased or twisted attitude or judgment.
13. the set of yarns placed lengthwise in the loom, crossed by and interlaced with the weft, and forming the lengthwise threads in a woven fabric.
14. time warp.
15. a situation, environment, etc., that seems characteristic of another era, esp. in being out of touch with contemporary life or attitudes, etc.

[http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/warp]

05.01.07

Posted by jing at 1/06/2007 04:03:00 PM

1.04.2007

paige & jaclyn

2 girls walking down life lane.
2 enchanters walking towards them.
the enchanters smiled.
the girls smiled back.
the enchanters turned and each casted a spell.
one spell hit paige in her guts.
one spell hit jaclyn in her heart.
the enchanters left.
the enchanters never looked back.
2 girls were left to bleed.
2 girls awaiting their rescuer.
will they heal the same?
will they ever walk the same?
they were just 2 girls walking down life lane.

Posted by jing at 1/04/2007 11:33:00 PM

1.03.2007

still the same

烙印 ©

以为早已不在乎
伤痛在心里埋伏
告诉自己不能哭
泪水依然往下流

多希望地球能停止转动
也许这样才能停止伤痛
多希望时间能让记忆淡薄
才能医治心充满烙印的我

以为能找到幸福
以为终究会结束
现在我才搞清楚
你根本就不在乎

jing @ 04 ・ jing @ 07

Posted by jing at 1/03/2007 10:10:00 PM

1.02.2007

chocolate fondue!!!

マシュマロ :: marshmallow
竜果物 :: dragon fruit
いちご :: strawberry
オレンジ :: orange

Posted by jing at 1/02/2007 10:41:00 PM

1.01.2007

f i r s t

one life . my life

one life. fleeting. sweet. bitter. smiles. laughters. tears. health. sickness. choices. responsibilities. friends. family. enemies. love. hate. proximity. distance. work. play. romance. food. drinks. time. sleep. wake. dream. rich. poor. happy. sad. music. movies. pool. walk. run. swim. jump. marriage. divorce. surprises. disappointments. God. you. me. him. her. them. live. expire.

my life. one life. one death. how will it be???

i'll walk with you. walk with me.

o n e l i f e . m y l i f e